Could this be the last time im writing about us? Our beautiful love story? Our journey?
Its not that easy for me to go through every single day thinking that ive lost you even when youre just a few metres away. Those words you said before we really become friends still linger in my mind. How much i try to control, pray and hope that im strong enough to face all this, still, i lose.
Tears keep streaming down my eyes for the past few days. i couldnt stop it from falling cause this pain im feeling inside my heart cant even be describe it in words. Even when i scream and whine all day long, nothing can make this pain go away. Even at this moment. Believe me not even when im sleeping, when i wake up the pain is still there.
Every single day i will walk pass our memory lane. Every single day i will walked pass the place where we parted away. and thus, memories of u will come back. Its like every where i go, there will always be pictures of u. How happy we were. how we argue and how much memories we build. I wonder, will i be able to forget you that easily? no, it wont be easy. Ive always depend on you on every single thing. i always let it out to u when im angry,sad, hurt and happy. Now, to where shall it go? my best friends. Its hard for me to accept the fact that he left and no, it wasnt his fault. its mine. if only i would have the chance to amend everything i would. i would cause he will always be the one that i cherished.
Through out the years ive known him, trust me he is the kind of guy every girl wants. He is the good guy from all the other guy ive met. He teached me how to appreciate myself, how not to fall for other's words he will always be there when i cry. He will always be there to make all kind of lame jokes just to see the smile on my face. I admit that i will say the un-nice things to him when we argue,but him.. he is always patience and would always give in to me no matter how hurt my words may be. Also, he will always be the one i bring to the places ive nver been. cause we once said "we shall explore/go to new places together for the first time"
I love him for what he is. i fall for his personalities then i fall for his looks.
Dear muhd syaiful,
i know ive hurt u more than u hurt me but u just wont admit it. i know im always a pain in the ass girl. i know how patience you were with me. how u will always give in even when youre not in the wrong. i admit, youre the most wonderful guy i have met who wont take advantage of me. you love me like how u love yourself. you do anything just to make me smile. You bought me things even when i dont ask u too. i was stupid. super stupid for not appreaciating you. i hope somedays i could open up ur heart and make you love me again.For now, Thank you for all the beautiful memories.
love,eiqaah
